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K EVERYONE I GOT A NEW LIVE JOURNAL. MY NAME IS XDEADTOMEX, AND IVE PROLLY ADDED YOU TO MY FRIENDS LIST ALREADY SO DO THE SAME BACK OR ILL KILL YOU!!!!!
<3 MISTY
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| remember to breathe |
[22 Jun 2003|11:52pm] |
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Ill have it out in a day or so when i get time.
I need to take up something that will not take up too much time, but it will allow me to let out all of this pent up anger that tends to come out at the worst times.
yeah, i think ill go to bed now.
I have to get up at seven thirty tomorrow again for the fourth day in a row goddamn i just wanna sleep in..:(
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Final eXpression is playing tomorrow night at the neutron bomb sooo you need to go!!!
TomASS on vocals
Blake the snake on guitar <3
Evil sean on drums
and Stan the man on base
everyone needs to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats really all i have to say at this point.
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[21 Jun 2003|11:58pm] |
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This has been a not so fantastic day. I dont know exactly why but im lonley as hell. Love is covered, but friendships are nada. I used to laugh so hard with THe two jessicas and kristine about the stupidest shit!!! and i miss them more than anything else. Blake fills a huge part of my life, but theres a part of me that just cant be touched by anyone but my girlfriends.
What is with me and people? Its weird...like one minute I could be hanging out with someone and it would feel like that person could possibly be my best friend in the world but then i hardly talk to that person at all and...its not the biggest loss in the world, but im still lonley as hell.
I MISS EVERYONE!!!!
===MOSTLY JESSICA CLAPP, MRS. JESSICA, AND KRISTINE RUSSELL FROM MY FRENCH CLASS
god it makes me sad...
but even if we were all together again things wouldnt be the same because I know that weve all changed...which is even sadder when you have to realize that things wont ever be the same.
all i know is that i miss what i had with them.
I have a feeling its all gone now...whats even worse is that i feel like nobody could ever place that high a meaning of true friendship as those three did..in just one year..(seven with jessicaC)
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shitty stuff happened today mostly with my parents. Im sick of hearing about religion from everyone...no not just christianity even though it seems to be the most loved and hated religion in america...
Im talking about atheists tooo.
Im sick of hearing about it.
Songs about hating jesus are really getting kinda old.
and gossip about what someone is wearing to church on sunday morning ranks right up there with making me want to throw up!!!!
ugh!!!
why.
chill out with that crap. Its a personal decision. Leave it that way because youre all just pissing everyone off...youre prolly not swaying someones beliefs by rubbing it in there face.
remember..this goes out to everyone. NOT JUST CHRISTIANS.
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ohh my parents are rather pissed off at me.
They say that I drive too much or some shit.
yeah whatever.
they also say that I cant get my lip pierced.
yeah thats crap too because my lip piercing isnt life threatning,nor does it put others lives in danger.
ohhhh and i happen to think that a nice silver hoop is way more attractive than a cigg hanging out of the side of your face.
ohhh and 30 bucks is nearly the same price of a carton of ciggs so nope, price isnt an issue either..
in the long run. I win!!!!!
which means im getting it pierced anyways. :)
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| on sleepless roads the sleepless go |
[18 Jun 2003|03:04pm] |
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Im bored....
just waiting around for Blake to get done recording.
There demo is going to be fantastic, they are seriously going to blow everyone away.
They are called Final eXpression and if you dont buy there demo your missing out and you suck. <3
They sound like a mix of converge/cave-in/slayer if you can imagine that.
anyway
It was great seeing whitney and Rami yesterday, it turns out Rami and I have this thing for the girls of Tatu, mostly Julia (short black hair) Whitney is looking alot better than id thought she would look. It was good to see her again of course its been a while.
Blake makes the funniest faces.
just thinking about it makes me smile from ear to ear and back again.
ohhh I heart blake.
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I had a fantastic night with blake last night.
thats all im going to say about it.
when things are starting to be crappy, i can always depend on him to do something perfect!!!!!!
<3
Today = me and Rami going to visit whitney, and then hang out with Vonneeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
then maybe after that blake blake blake.
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[15 Jun 2003|03:53pm] |
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[mood] content
[music] converge/agoraphobic nosebleed - mantis
[time] 3:55pm
[eating] nothing
[drinking] nothing
[clothes] bluejeanskirt, blackshirt, black sports bra
[thinking] about what im doing for the next few days (lots)
[wanting] ummmmmm nothing, im totally content right now for the first time
[weather] muggy and sunny.
[loving] i wish i were loving blake in person right now
[hating] you, jk. umm, just a couple of people
[watching] the computer screen, and my parents are watching the nutty professor
{random}
[what color are your walls?] white
[what does your room look like?] purple, furry, elvis, tatu..really too much going on in my room at the moment.
[what are your favorite pictures you own?] pictures of me when i was a kid
[what kinda shoes?] shoes are crappy, barefoot is the way to be
[what's that good stuff I smell?] *cough* moms smoke.
[what do your bed sheets look like?] greenish..seafoam greenish? mint green..hahahah i dont know
[what is always right next to your bed?] my cell phone, my cd player
[what would describe you in one word?] content
[most overused phrase?] word
[what's all on your walls in your room?] elvis, sand art that i did with blake, tatu, stars, mirrors
[what do you think about before you sleep?] things that i shouldnt think about when im trying to sleep
[do you pray?] not usually
[are you an atheist?] nope, couldnt be
[have any diseases?] nah
[have any disorders?] yeah, but i ignore that shit
[what would you wish for?] i wanna fly
[do drugs regularly?] no way x
[drink like a lonely 40yr old man at a bar?] first off, bars are lame, second off i dont talk to 40 year old men that I dont know (specially lonley ones) and third and most importatly, i dont drink x
[what song describes you best?] umm....you tell me
[your oldest boyfriend/girlfriend?] I dated someone who was 20 when i was 16
[funniest memory] ive had alot of fun in my life. right now im thinking about last night with blake and it makes me laugh.
[saddest memory] eh...
[scariest memory] same as above
[you're looking forward to] eating dinner
[you're not looking forward to] going to school
[what are you doing online?] taking this quiz
[who are you talking to?] nobody
[favorite bands?] at the moment...errr, i really love converge, cave in, goddamn I really honestly dont have a favorite band at the moment
[favorite local bands?] final eXpression. there gonnna be sooo good.
[band that writes the best lyrics?] dashboard, converge, ten yard fight. x
[band you'd be a groupie for?] umm...by groupie you mean?
[ever done anything with a banana besides eat it?] hahahhhaahahah sick. no
[had sex more then once in a period of 5 months?] yeah
[do you like humping things?] blake isnt a thing
[ever stuck your tongue out and wink at a hot guy/girl?] in a joking manner i wink sometimes, sticking out my toungue isnt somehting I do regularly....rarely
[ever bark out a window?] what? no.
[what are you addicted to?] this is sad...caffine. Im working on cutting that down, and I have
[have any obsessions?] nope
[current annoyance] the sound of the tv under my music
[last GOOD concert you've been to?] caseyxjones, kids like us, paid in blood, final eXpression
[what do you collect?] elvis shit
[has the police ever been to your house because of you?] yeah, and it was for me, and no dont ask
[do you have a job?] yeah, Barnes and Nobel starbucks
[where do you go to school?] umm..nowhere at the moment
[do you exercise regularly?] not regularly
{friends/people who...}
[sits at your lunch table] I dont have a lunch table
[last person that made your heart fall to your feet] Blake ::sigh::
[last person you fell in love with] Blake
[makes you piss yourself laughing] Ive only done that one time and that was when i was in seventh grade in a hay barn...yeah. hahahahahah covered in shit (litterally)
[annoys you] stephanie my brothers girlfriend, people at the mall on friday nights smoking infront of vans.
[is a pervert] errrrr. bert
[you miss the most] i miss megan the most
[were in a car with] the last person i was in a car with was blake
[was over your house] Blake
[you haven't talked to in months] alot of people who i thought were really important
[makes you horny] mmblake
[last person you went to a show with] blake
[last persons house you were at] Blakes
[last person that IMed you] Megan
[you want to die] dont make me start a list, youre name might be on it and id get in trouble
[you can tell anything to] .....
[you're going to call tonight] vonne, blake and Rami
[last person you emailed] megan
[you wish you looked like] that chick that got in trouble for shop lifting
[acts like you the most] im not sure
[has changed the most] jeff
[is a good friend you never get to see] megan
[you most likely to marry] Ive got my eye on someone.
[do you talk to online, but not in person] lanie
[has the nicest ass] nicest or biggest? I like blakes butt its cute, tomas has a big ass, and as far as nice asses id have to say......kelly mos deff
[nicest lips] blake by a long run
[guy that has the nicest hair] tomas
[girl that has the nicest hair] kelly
{have you ever...}
[lied about your age] a long time ago
[broke the law] yeah
[cried in public] yeah
[commited suicide] that would mean im dead
[ran away from home] yup
[ran away from home and got caught] well..no i got away easy everytime
[been attracted to the same sex] not attracted too like that, but when i girl is pretty im not afraid to say it, and then give her a dirty look.
[drank a whole bottle of bacardi 151] nope
[puked from drug usage] yeah, but not again xxx
[puked from alcohol usage] yeah, but never again. xxx
[made yourself puke] yes
[been to jail] no
[been to a crazy home] no
[got drunk/high at or before work/school] did you know me when i was in 9th grade? yeah..id say three outta five days
[got your foot stuck in a chair] yeah.hahhaha
[went for 3 days without showering] sick..yeah one time when i ran away
[saved unusual things from people] eh..not that i can think of at the moment
[stalked someone] umm...just so i knew when to go in for the vandalisim
[partied for a week straight] no, im not a huge party animal
[been fucked up for a week straight] no
[been in an ambulance] yeah.
[if so, when/what for] a year and a half ago, overdose
[pissed yourself] in seventh grade when i was laughing really hard..but it was just for a second
[painted your nails black] yeah
[thought you were a bird] umm....no, but ive wished it before
[chased a bird] chasing chickens is the best
[almost killed a bird] no
[been stuck somewhere] yeah
[made a screename with someones name in it] nope
[slept with someone over 18] yes
[drank slimfast] a while back
[snorted when you laughed] oh yes
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| our love, our love, in a ball of yarn |
[13 Jun 2003|11:51pm] |
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Im just tired....of life in general.
I know, happy go lucky misty in love with life in love with love in love with being loved....
speaking of taking the truth by the neck and holding it up to my face,
well there it is.
im truly not the happiest girl on earth.
I dont understand how when i say something right it feels good for about a second and then i fear when ill be asked another question, giving the right answer (the honest one)but having the wrong tone of voice or something so small (really huge) and it ruins the entire evening.
Then I come home and say "hey guys im home!" with a kinda awkward smile on my face thinking of Bjork and then converge back and fourth in my head (that kinda thing will make anyone crazy)and nobody said a word to me....I love it.
Specially when I know they heard me, the lights are on i can hear them talking quietly they certainly heard me scream....
maybe they just didnt want to hear me so they didnt.
maybe im not anything to anyone that im supposed to be, in other words a big dissapointment.
Im not looking for someone to lie to me and say "misty you mean so much to me" because i dont talk to half of you.
I dont want a fucking pitty party from anyone but myself so fuck off and leave me to myself for a while.
Its not going to get any better, but at least im being honest.
blah...
my entries are really pointless lately, sorry to bore everyone with my pathetic schzotypal behavior.
yeah and why in the fuck after so many years do you still come back to haunt me at the times that could be the best times of my goddamn life?
youre fucking dead.
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| im just a hunkahunka burnin love |
[12 Jun 2003|11:55pm] |
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Today went by sooo fast because I slept in till almost one!! Ugh, i totally didnt want to do that because I wanted to spend as much of the day with Blake that I could but things didnt work out that way soooo....bah. I didnt get to his house till after four because I had to go to some places with moms...ehhem, coffee at BN to see Heather.
Whitney and Rami were there when I got there which was cool that I got to see her before her thing tomorrow. I hope everything goes smoothly. I usually have good laughs with them so it was nice as always.
Ive been in a crappy mood all day but it all went away by the time I got to Blakes.
God im really crazy about that guy.
I think sometimes that he might think that I say "I love you" too much but god i doo love him!! There has to be another word I can say that means more than the word love or something because ive heard "I love you" soooooooooooo many times for it to mean as much as it is by the way it sounds...holy shit did that make any sense? yea prolly not huh?
hehehe we didnt get to go anywhere fun because my car needs to be taken care of and I needed gas to get home and to work tomorrow (im sorry blake) we DID go to blockbuster though!!!
the exorcist is a scary movie. movies never scare me till I get home and everything is all quiet and stuff.
I dont wanna go to work. Days off always seem to go by soo fast, too fast.
holla if you heard.
hahahahahhahha
shit im dorky even when im not half asleep.
p.s. Ill bring your guitar to you tomorrow cleve, and thank you and i love you and happy three month.
p.s.s. PIENCE!!! hahahaahahahahahhahhahah
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| no rain this time |
[12 Jun 2003|12:06am] |
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again....i dont think im sleeping tonight because of who knows what.
Im sick of not sleeping.
Im really sick of it. Everyone tells me to take some pm meds, but umm...no.
why you ask?
because I know myself enough to know that I would start to take it every night to sleep better if it works the first time and who wants to be dependent on that?
yeah not me.
soooo I guess its just me and myself again tonight for a long hard look at my past.
holy crap!! Its 12:11 am which means its officially me and Blakes three month!!
woohoo!!!
shut up, it means alot to me.
ummmmm what else...I wish i could come up with some clever thing to get him, but im running on empty in the mind lately..lack of sleep?
someone...anyone...I need some ideas here as far as sleep is concerned.
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| after a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything |
[10 Jun 2003|11:45pm] |
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I guess alot of stuff is going on. Im thinking about writing another one of those message things to every one of you, but not tonight. I have a little something id like to say to most of you and fucking scream at some of you...but somethings should be kept under wrap to save the little good rep that you have left...but thats just to some of you lovely heartbreakers</3
Theres really actually alot going on, but most of it I cant say on the internet because its none of your business and some would say its gossip..even if its the goddamn truth and that I hold the same opinion as many others.
yesssah. If you missed american nightmare than you misssed prolly one of the GREATEST shows. Sure the neutron bomb was a little small but ill be goddamned if anyone really cared when the band started anyways.
what else...dont you hate awkward situations? yeah but you know you love making them hahaahha. you stupid whore thats what you get!!
When the hell did the world decide that guys cant be sluts? and when did we decide that if they are sluts thatits okay? Call me a pissed off and past driven female but jesus christ I dont understand why a guy who has sex with a lot of girls all the time is called lucky, why is it an ego boost to them?, and why in the HELL do girls tend to go for them?
girls however, keep your legs together for the sake of your rep and your respect, more than one and youve made a name for yourself.
whew, im on a role tonight
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I got back from blakes a little bit ago. What can I say? Im working on approaching things better and being a better girlfriend. I guess there are things that I can change? yeah..for him i can.
for him I will.
try.
I dont want to go to work tomorrow..I love the people I work with more after the work party sunday night (shut up)but I HATE CUSTOMERS!!!! GAHFCEJAIHEDFAKJODFIAFUI
DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE
BAH
I hate working tuesdays!!! I hate you.
ps. I hope you get to feeling better..whatever is wrong. Ill calll you when I get off work tomorrow, hope youll be home. I miss you already which is no surprise....but i have to admitt, i was hoping youd call, even if it would result in an argument and feeling bad on both sides.....i hate thinking...and I love you.
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| kiss me and tell me its not broken |
[27 May 2003|11:07pm] |
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okay, so its set in my mind right now that nobody in the world could possibly be this crazy about one single person.
splendiferous, fantasteriferous
Okay..so youre laying on the bed and you both want to be there and thats the ONLY place you want to be in the world is right where you are laying just like you are, smiling just like you cant help it...and somehow I fell even more in love with him.
how does this happen to someone like me?
you know that perfect thing that everyone searches for day in and day out? yeah it found me and I found him.
im so happy right now.
Dont ever let me fall.
I love you blake charles connally
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| soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo he does EVERYTHING PERFCECT!!! |
[26 May 2003|10:23pm] |
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im in a good moood all thanks to BLAKE.
today I...
dyed heathers hair
went to blakes
ate pizza (mmmm)
fought with Danielle (jackies friend)
got really mad
went to a music store to buy drum sticks
home
best in show
walmart with blakes mom
sean came over
dinner
mavish
*****THE BEST TIME EVER WITH THE GREATEST GUY ON EARTH!!!!
BAH..
<3<3<3<3<3<3
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| mmmmmmm emotions |
[26 May 2003|11:52am] |
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i got an elvis phone cover
i fell more in love with blake
and i hate jackie more than i did before.
<3 misty
p.s. im coming over blake
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| contemplating things that I L*A*C*K |
[24 May 2003|11:52pm] |
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tonight me and blake watched this fest in mass. on mtv2. headbangers something...and they were discussing the difference in metal moshing and hardcore moshing.
I hate to see a group of insignificant brainless ignorant lost and hopeless people ruin a show that could have been alright the night before last.
Keep up with having brains and using them boys and girls. I love you<3
also does anyone know where I could get something engraved for someone?
p.s. Thank you for being
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| one of my more confussing entries. |
[24 May 2003|12:06am] |
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I had a pretty nice day today, as almost everyday it had its downsides but im still alive today so whatever.
Me and Blake went and saw the matrixxx, which by the way is wayyyy more sexxxual than the first one but its not dirty discusting sexual to the point of making me want to throw up all over myself and cry because people are so fucking discusting and yeah....the vidio for porn something christ (i dont remember the song) by december something (dont remember the name of the group either) must have been one of the more discusting vidios ive ever seen.
I dont know what upset me more, the fact that it was discusting or the fact that I was watching it with blake.
ANYWAYS.
(not sleeping)
rice is the best food ever in life.
Blake is the best guy ever in life.
Stan and Jeremy are nice guys too and it was nice to see them for two seconds.
wrastling in bed is fun, its never been this much fun.
umm..yeah everyone go see that movie because trinity is hot and so is neo.
fuck you its hotter than you.
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[21 May 2003|02:33pm] |
I can delete this journal..
and get a new one to make things go away...or at least make it feel that way a little bit.
I cant delete my past from your head, much like i cant remove my heart from your hands.
im sorry.
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